On Relationship

It such a wonderful thing to have a deep connection with a person outside our family. There’s no blood related, yet he wants to struggle to stay with us, and love us sincerely.

I met my love life at the age of 26. A year after breakup, I found him. Finally, I found someone that I've been looking for. He may not be perfect, but he is perfectly enough for me.

He has a golden heart, a helping hand, and a warm smile. I never imagined there's a person who loves me and care for me other than my family.

He makes me smile and happy by his own way. Sometimes, we fight and argue, but it just makes our relationship stronger and stronger. Sometimes I can't help myself when I have to deal with my trauma. I don't even know how to explain it.

I hope he can understand that it's not always about him. It's not his fault when I'm sad. It's just me with my unresolved thing in my past.

And I wish he can accept me entirely. I want him to accept me as I am. Someone that other people can't see. Behind my smile, I hide all my traumas inside my body. I can appear as a cheerful person, but the truth is...

I'm still struggling, and it hurts.

Sometimes I can randomly crying for no reason. I can cry every night before going to sleep. And it's exhausting.

But I try....

I try to always happy in front of people

And in front of him..

I just want him to know that I love him and wants to live forever in his arms.

"I love you. I hope there's another beautiful word to say it"

Love, R.